its been awhile...

man...
havent written a blog in forever!
SORRY guys... a girl has been very busy..

from boys to men, from money to cars, from friends to haters, from having fun to crying my eyes out, from the beach to the city.

yea im doin the damn thing..


i have alot on my mind.
school is great. even tho its mt.sac

hoepfully still goin to Dominguez hills in the fall
then im out this weak ass city for good.

dont have a job yet, this shit is so hard.
but im still gettin what i want tho...

dont have a bf.. but damn guys come and go like buses.
one guy that i got my eye on who im not too sure about anymore.
hes fine, smart[frrom what i can tell], funny, just everything i could possibly want on the surface.
hes the only guy i ever made a move on first.
called him over to me gave him the number. from there we started kickin it...
the rest you dont need to know but now....
im sittin here like fuck...
hes on my mind everyday....
i want him to be mine only but he doesnt know tht.. haha
but idk. dont think its gonna happen.

the ex- who is basically the only nigguh ive ever felt sooo passionate about asked me to be his "girl" again...like WTF!
a girls heart can only take so much before it just gives up.
and thats what i did that final and last time
i gave him up.
and now only when i have someone else in mind who could be perfect, he wants to come around wit all those "baby baby please's" and shit.
ughhh.
honestly he almost sucked me back in but im a changed person.
never been weak but i was weak for him even when he did me soo wrong..
everybody used to ask why and wth "idk dammit"
thats why ppl call it love. you just dont know how to describe it.


grrrr...enough of that.
i got some other dudes in mind but they dont get a paragraph an shit.

ALLY!
man I L Y sooo damn much
i dont know where id be without you girl!
cant wait for us to start this life we got planned out!
shit gonna be soooooo GREAT!

BROOKE- my see-stur
love her even if she kicks it with the ______. lol

KWAJOOOOO- my bigga nigga
ilh even tho you get on my nerves wit dumbass questions!

hmmm...
what else..

oh JAMAICA in august i think...
no more puerto rico but ill be there eventually.


so much has happened since my last blog i dont even know what else to write tho...
i will get back to this if i remember some other stuff.. =]